Well, I was reading the last few posts I put up in here and it's been awhile since then.
I still believe all that I wrote is real, but I am sorry to say it didn't sustain the workings of my mind throughout the last few years.
I sadly got caught up in all the fear of the pandemic and lost sight of the only thing that matters...turning my heart to the Lord, and not the world.
The encouraging part is that it gave me a clearer view of what I am truly like and what I want to be free of. I see the only way out of the wilderness of self is to first feel the full extent of it's barren, dry, wandering nature. To really feel the state of desperation and helplessness that only a Savior can relieve us from.
I thought I knew I needed Him, but I had no idea how much!
So what does any of this have to do with massage? Nothing at all, but I wanted to share it here anyway.
What I CAN say about that is, my business survived the fall and I am very grateful.
I appreciate those who have stayed with me and were patient during the months I couldn't manage to work and breathe at the same time.
My hope is that as we all keep trudging through the wilderness of this world, our eyes are set only on eternity and our hearts are willing to let go of all that could keep us from the One we are meant for.
The outward objects of this world can scarcely satisfy your outward man, during the short period of your toilsome life. But inwardly, you have a hunger which cannot be satiated, and a mind that cannot be satisfied, except by an all sufficient and infinitely lovely object, which is God alone.
Gerhard Tersteegen
